less than 4 weeks

it is less than 4 weeks to the start of exams.

and i m still busy with lots of random stuff.

got to start preparing for exams seriously NOW.

complicated

sometimes life is so complicated that i wish i am still a kid.

people always leave - credit to chingching lee

read this from szeching's blog and i kinda like it. so i decided to reproduce it. and hence, i m obliged to direct you to her wonderful blog at http://www.sceleven.blogspot.com/

btw, ching posted this on 30th april 2010.

people always leave.
and i am one of those.
i realised i am always in and out of some people's lives.
come and leave as i want.
i know this is really bad but i have no choice.
after three years in pcghs, i had to leave to come here.
after two years in ijtp, i had to leave to go jc.
after two years in acjc, i had to leave to go uni.
maybe after a year, i have to leave.


again.


it's really frustrating because once you have create great friendship with people around you, you know that this is gonna end soon.
sometimes, you manage to continue that friendship even after so long, which is really great, but, most of the times, that is not the case.
i am glad to have a few of my childhood friends still with me, mijos, some fouroners, 6th and 21st.


i always wonder what would it be like if one day i am out of someone's life.
i hope i can go into the person's mind and see what he/she is thinking.
that would be really interesting.


but for now, let's just cherish all the times we have, k?
who knows one day i will continue my leaving habit.
and when that time comes, i wish that i have been a great friend, great company.
and i hope that i will be remembered, somehow.
just random stuff like, that's the girl who say stuff that other people don't understand and finds it amusing, or, oh that girl.
hahaha :D

Gone Too Soon: Tan Shyn Lyn

Saw on my facebook homepage that ivy joined the group 'gone too soon: tan shyn lyn' and curiosity got the better of me. so i clicked on the group and went to take a look.

the info there did not put away all my curiosity and i was still wondering what had happened. all my friends in spore were in the midst of exam, so i did not want to disturb them.

at buffet at bondi beach on sunday, heard from minwei that there was a msian girl from selangor who was studying in NUS (Spore) who committed suicide. she was in her final year and was going to graduate from dentistry within months. immediately, my thoughts linked this to the facebook group. there must be some correlation.

came back and did some research or rather web-surfing/browsing. more info surfaced and i drew all them together to explain certain situations and made my deductions which were later confirmed.

A fellow ASEAN scholar, even though she was a few years more senior than I was and I have not met her before, it is sad to know that such a bright, talented girl had taken her own life. I share her brother's sentiments that I am glad and proud that she had the courage to seek medical help for her depression in a society where seeking mental help can be stigmatised and laughed upon.

There is no proper explanation of why she has taken her own life and I do not attempt to make speculations. Rather, i think this tragedy sheds lights on how important support is for teenagers and young adults alike, especially those who are on a foreign land on their own. No matter how many years a person could have been living independently away from home, the hollow and lonely feeling still surface from time to time. There is no reason to assume that necessary and adequate care and support can be regarded as of less importance.

Hopefully, it is also a reminder to all of us to make that little effort to understand and listen to people around us, be it our friends, family members, relatives or just anyone who does not look like his or her usual self. There is so much that i would want to write, but i have no idea how to put them into words. this is a very sad tragedy, which probably could have been prevented.

I hope that shyn lyn's demise could be a wake up call for us to reflect on what could have been done and what should not have been done so that we can all prevent such tragedies from happening again.

Took these news articles from the facebook group:

http://search.sinchew-i.com/node/530623?k=自殺 (chinese)

http://search.sinchew-i.com/node/531706?k=自殺 (chinese)

http://search.sinchew-i.com/node/531848?k=自殺 (chinese)

http://freeweb.wordpress.com/ (translations of the above 3 chinese articles, for the benefit of non-chinese readers/speakers)

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/lindaxlquek

found this quite cool and interesting :D

Saving Andrew Mallard

Watching the documentary called "Saving Andrew Mallard" made me reflect on why I am studying law after all.

When I was young, I told my mum that I wanted to be a lawyer because I wanted to help people who are disadvantaged. Mum told me that being a lawyer often means helping the bad guy. Innocently, I said, I would help good guys who are just too poor and can't afford a lawyer. And mum said, then you won't get business to make money! Haha. How innocent was I.

People always say that money in the legal profession lies in the corporate area. People often ask if I am going to be a corporate lawyer in the future because I am studying commerce and law.

There is so much injustice in the world. Our society is not perfect, I admit it and I acknowledge that no one society can be perfect.

I guess I will just have to figure out what I want to achieve from my career and what are the possible trade offs.


Here is a link to wiki on Andrew Mallard: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrew_Mallard

strange + CEO

it is funny how at times when you are surrounded by many people, you still have this hollow feeling. it is like you are looking for someone, but you might not even know who you are looking for. it is a strange feeling that i have yet to find an explanation for.

anyway, attended the Meet the CEO - Mike Smith (CEO of ANZ) this evening at Scientia building.

the financial parts are a little too in-depth for me to fully understand. but points taken are:

- how do you pull through challenges? you never doubt yourself. you always believe that you will succeed and you will achieve what you want

- not everyone is ambitious

realized that china is really the big power now. dont need to think about a nation-wide china business. just a small city might be enough to generate decent profits. on another note, size of population might be important, but the wealth level of the people can make a huge difference too.

-the end-

enjoy life

haven't posted anything for a long time. apologies to people who actually read this blog. LOL.

easter break is over. had a wonderful one with family in melb and later with friends on an epic crazy trip to mount kosciuszko.

reality is starting to sink in.

putting that aside.

nothing is permanent in this world. everything changes. i m in control of how i want to live everyday and every minute of my life.

life is complicated and that is what makes it interesting. human emotions, interactions, understandings, secrets and all sorts of stories keep the world colourful and add spice to our lives. sometimes they turn out to be trouble. but aren't they what keep us going and train us to be stronger? definitely there are times when we feel like succumbing and giving up. but is that an option? we are answerable to our lives at the end of the day. so live your life in whatever way that you want. there is no one path that everyone should take. there is no one formula to living. there is no one formula to happiness and success.

enjoy your life because you never know what is going to happen next :D

obstacles

just to share with you guys:

you can let obstacles beat you, ruin you or you can choose to overcome them.

:D

so much has happened

i havent written a post for so long. apologies to my readers out there (if there's any left) LOL

i have been back in sydney for 3 weeks. arrived in sydney on 1st march on SIA A380. well, so much news about the A380, but i felt that there is not much difference! lol. maybe i m just someone who doesnt pay too much attention to details.

week 1 was too easy and maybe as levin said, i slacked too much and fell sick. really sick.

friday on week 1 was IH opening dinner. i had headache in the middle of the dinner and went straight back to my room after the dinner, missing out on the after party and the camwhoring session. a night sleep didnt help and i was feeling cold. down with fever the next day. maybe fever started on friday night. but anyway, i was down with fever on saturday. but i still went for sailing. because i thought that it was going to be fun and it was fun! and then we went to have korean bbq. didnt really have appetite for dinner. sunday, i was still sick. monday of week 2, went to uni health services with sis. fever and was told to get panadol and nurofen. took blood test too. to cut the story short, i went to the health services every day on week 2. until friday when the gp decided that i should be admitted, because they cant figure out what is wrong with me! LOL.

went to emergency department at Prince of Wales (POW) hospital and waited for 2 hours before i was attended to. (considered quite a short waiting time). more blood test and they wanted me to try eating. initially i was told that i will be able to go home and to return on monday to see the blood test results. however, the blood test results showed that my liver has malfunctioned. basically, there was a very high level of panadol. overdose of panadol? not possible because i didnt take more than 8 panadols a day. so ya, i was told that i have to be admitted because they have to get my liver count thingy down to normal. it was really high. normal person's max limit is 50 and mine reached 1500.

anyway, the first bag of drips was BAD! side effects, maybe. i was going to vomit and coughed like crazy. sis must have been frightened. and btw, we waited from about afternoon till 1am before i was transferred from ED to a ward! LOL.

spent saturday and sunday in the hospital, in P4E which was an oncology ward. well, that means cancer patients. like xiaoshu said, maybe it is a good time to reflect on life! LOL.

anyway, was discharged on monday morning and luckily cheekong was there to listen to what the doctor said. because i couldnt understand the terms. LOL.

btw, mum flew here from msia and arrived on saturday because everyone was so worried about me and chyeyew cousin told her to come over. maybe the liver count was really terrifying.

on a last note, i would like to thank everyone who has visited me, helped me and cared for me when i was sick. i m well now, and hopefully tomorrow's blood test results will show me that i m totally well!! :D

back to studies! :D

i was told to write

so i was told to write.

first of all, had a great time with weining, jiayen and ian on a road trip yesterday.

klang bak kut teh, kin kin chilli pan mee, pavilion, lala chong seafood at ara damansara. Yay!! :D

and well, i cannot resist to say this.

on our way to get to the car from pavilion, we walked past bb plaza. and there was this cny celebration thingy organised by bb charity. from my deduction, bb charity serves people who are poor, mostly the elderly.

what a sad sight to see these old people sitting by the roadside, enjoying a packet of fried noodles with some vege and a hard-boiled egg. and then i was thinking, how much can these packet of food cost? maybe rm3 or at most rm4.

and then think again, how much do i spend on my stuff. am i being too extravagant?

secondly, my internship is coming to an end. in my 9th week of internship.

i think that i have learnt a lot from this internship, not sure how i have done in my senior's eyes, but i think that the most important thing is that i learnt :D met many nice people at accenture and i m glad that i have been here :D

cny is coming really soon and in no time, i will be back in sydney.

i shall go and shower already. LOL.

bb!

future

i think i need to start writing, before i forget how to write a proper piece of writing. lol.

anyway, nowadays i get lots of thinking and reading time because i take the train to and fro work, which takes about 45 minutes one way.

i have this feeling that many people at work here are not really happy with their work. i mean, it is not sth that they enjoy. they are sticking to it more like it is good money to earn and i need a living. i kinda feel that this doesnt apply only to the junior staff, but to almost all staff generally. maybe even partners/directors?

and this got me thinking. is this the kind of life that i want a few years down the road?

definitely, like everyone (i suppose), i would want a job that i enjoy.

but seeing so many people doing sth that they dont enjoy, will i end up as one of them?

i mean, there is nothing wrong. really. this is life. not everything goes our way all the time.

but how do i get a job that i will enjoy?

first of all, i need to know what i enjoy doing, right?

and so here comes the thinking. i have no idea what i really enjoy doing. like i m kinda lost. what do i want to do in the future?

u know how when you ask kids what they want to be in the future, they will say occupations like

teachers, engineers, pilots, doctors, lawyers, nurses etc

but the more i got to know about the job that i wanted to do, the more i m doubtful of my choice.

what do i really want to do in the future?

politics

so now the word 'allah' is such a hot topic in msia. everytime i access google news, i see this word.

and words of protest. sigh, i just feel that there's double-side politics here. dont feel like writing any further.

why spend so much time and resources on a word.

mid-week

busy day at work today. but guess others have even more to do. LOL :D

thanks to everyone for all the help, esp elaine, ciyi and zita :D

looking forward to weekends. LOL :D

dinner+movie

got a msg from ken when i was at work. supposed to meet up with him on wednesday for dinner. it was pushed forward to today. haha. cos his friend got 2 tix to a movie at mid valley tonight.

had dinner at sushizanmai at the gardens with him. i think wagaya serves better japanese food :P

movie was "Old Dog" that is supposed to be released on 7th. ken's friend is a dj at XFM and they had the hall 1 booked. so ya, we got a free movie! :D quite a funny movie, but not a movie that i would spend money to watch in a cinema. it is a movie to download and watch though. LOL.

tired, got to sleep. bb

busy day

when you have lots to do, time really flies. when you have nothing to do, time passes by sooooo slowly. surprisingly, a busy day at work made me feel more energetic after work. LOL.

enjoy 2010! :D

2010

back to kl. going to start my first week of 5 days work. should go back to muar this weekend, if i can, for a friend's bday and gathering of sort.

thanks to weeyong for fetching me back to dj. haha.

looking forward to meeting up with ken and bel. and maybe with benjamin for a good dinner. LOL. food-aholics. :P

wishing everyone a really good year ahead. and may everyone be blessed with laughters and joy! :D