me.

a considerably close friend in the same course is transferring to medicine next year.
another friend is thinking of transferring to med science.

all of a sudden, i was thrown into a sea of questions, M I DOING WHAT I SHOULD BE DOING? Is the degrees and hence possible careers that i m putting myself in suitable for me?

i realized that i have always wanted to be a lawyer. maybe that was since i was 4 or 5 years old. and that is what spurred me to study hard since i was really young.

my motivation to strive for excellence is actually my aunt and her family. i was brought up by my aunt and her family until i was 4 or 5 years old. i have no idea why i was put with my aunt since i was an infant. but yes, i remember living there with my aunt, uncle and my 5 other cousins. they are all a tad elder than me and i was like the little kid. they were definitely not rich, but my aunt worked really hard. i know that i was not in the middle or upper class family. and one day, when we were watching some hk drama, it struck me --> what happens to those people who are poor but who are taken to court and they cant afford to hire lawyers to advise or represent them? why is it so unfair? and then, i set my mind on becoming a lawyer, a lawyer who will help those who are poor (which i found out much later that it is called pro bono ^-^)
i did not like the feeling of being looked down upon and i told myself that when i grow up, i will earn enough to give my aunt a comfortable life.

i went back to stay with my parents when i was 4 or 5 years old. and then life just goes on, primary school, secondary school in muar and then singapore, and then jc in singapore. so many things happened and somehow, this passion to be a lawyer was lost somewhere. i was just striving to excel because i was paid to study and it was expected of me to perform. and i wanted to perform to make my parents proud. my confidence level was thrashed a couple of times, esp when i was in JC and i started to doubt myself, unsure if the apparently tough and grueling law degree was something that i could handle. thanks to my parents who insisted on this, because i have no regrets that i m doing a commerce/law double degree now.

i might not the top student in law. it might not be sth that i ace in now. but i have found that desire and purpose again. eventually, my degrees are foundations and stepping stone for me to help people who i want to help. and of course, like what judge kirby said in a lecture a couple of months ago, the most important and valuable thing in everyone's life is to have a partner who can share his/her joy, suffering, pain and all experiences in life.







i m not someone who likes people to press me further for information. so if i can keep this to myself for so many years, i hope that, if you read this, just take it as 'oooooh, it's like that' and do not ask me anything else. thank you. :D